As a doctor in California, my life has not changed since Roe ended. I’m disgusted by it.

Last month, I saw Dr. Caitlin Bernard’s face on Fox News with the question: “Failed to report?” Right-wing media questioned whether Indiana doctors had reported to state authorities as required by law An abortion procedure was performed by a doctor who performed an abortion on a 10-year-old girl who had been raped and denied care in her home state of Ohio.

In an instant, I knew they had a target on her back. Clearly, they intend to do so.

Putting aside the fact that Bernard has complied with reporting requirements, you couldn’t have written a better way to put the bullseye on the doctor’s back. It was this misleading statement that led to the 2009 murder of abortion doctor Dr. George Tiller by an anti-abortion extremist.

In that moment, as a doctor who understands that abortion is healthcare and that bodily autonomy is a human right, I wish I and all my like-minded colleagues had their faces on the screen in solidarity with Dr. Bernard. If there’s ever a time for doctors to have an “I’m Spartacus” moment — especially for those of us who aren’t in the immediate line of fire — it’s now.

The forced-birth movement wants doctors to keep silent about what actually takes away people’s bodily autonomy as bans that trigger abortions take effect in state after state. The best way to shut up the next inhumane clinician who wants to promote forced fertility laws is to put them in the treatment of Dr. Caitlin Bernard: baselessly attacking them for lying, discrediting their professionalism, threatening them with Investigate, wallpaper the web to see their faces and locations, wait for the flesh-and-blood searches and death threats.

This will happen time and time again to clinicians who are as brave as Dr. Bernard to stick their necks out. It requires the rest of us to do more.

Doctors are not always the most aggressive or bravest bunch. Most of my colleagues come from more privileged backgrounds, those who have been in training for more than a decade living comfortable, stable lives – family, kids and disposable income to take family vacations to tropical islands. Sure, they went to women’s marches with their kids, or bought them Ruth Bader Ginsberg boardbooks, but that’s usually the level of their “political” involvement. If doctors or their loved ones need an abortion, they may find a way to get the care they need. In our personal lives, we are largely cut off from the reality of this post-Roy world.

But that’s not the case for countless patients.

Our doctors recognize the assault on the physical and mental health of 16-year-old girls in Florida who are considered too immature to make an abortion decision but mature enough to be forced into childbirth. Our clinicians are trained to understand fetal abnormalities that are incompatible with life, such as a woman in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, who refused abortion care, heartbreakingly said she “took it to bury it” . We know what a high-risk physiological pregnancy is, and that no one should be compelled by law to risk their life and well-being, let alone someone who is carrying an unviable pregnancy.

We know it is inhumane to have to consult a hospital lawyer to treat a patient with an ectopic pregnancy or sepsis because every minute can mean a life lost. What is the right level of near-death before we intervene to save lives? How high do their fevers and white blood cell counts need to be? How many liters of blood will she need before we are allowed to proceed? How willing do we need to be to face fines, lose licenses and even life in prison to do the right thing for our patients? Time flies to the inevitable moment when we have our very own Savita Halappanavar, who died of sepsis in Ireland in 2012 after being denied a life-saving abortion.

I know my life in California looks a lot like two months ago when Roe was the law of the land, and frankly, I’m sick of it. Yes, I have caregiving responsibilities, jobs, medical issues, and legitimate reasons to sit back while others take the helm and do their best for our most vulnerable patients. But then I remember Dr. Bernard and I reflecting on what solidarity looked like – I was in my life telling kids how to fight bullying, respect people and their bodies, how their bodies are theirs, and no one can tell them different .

This moment in history forces us to ask ourselves: How will we respond? Do we have the necessary courage to stand up for those who cannot get the access they need?

What sacrifices are we willing to make, what comforts are we willing to give up, to put our beliefs into practice? Do we need to upskill and support our colleagues in border states whose clinics are currently inundated with pregnant women needing health care? Can we find ways to support people who need medical abortion medication? Will we organize as a voice to fight for the most fundamental of all rights, the right to our own bodies?

I don’t have any answers yet. But I know that sitting on the sidelines is no longer an option.

Dipti S. Barot is a primary care physician in the East Bay. Twitter: @diptisbarot

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